Where am I? Where am I going?

Have you ever known God had big things in store for you, but you didn't know what they were or how you were going to get there? I know that God has "great" things in store for my life, but I just don't see how my life now is going to turn into the life I imagine God has for me. Of course, the "great" in my mind could be a completely different "great" than the one God has in mind, but something tells me that the two fall pretty closely together. It's frustrating. I don't know what it is God wants me to do. I don't know how I am supposed to get there. I see the path I'm on and I see the one I imagine gets me to where I think I'm going, but I just don't see how the two coincide. I do know that this is the part where I learn patience. This is the part where I continue on the path I'm on, working towards doing God's will, and wait and see the incredible journey God has for me.

Right now I am on the path to finish my degree in Public Relations with a minor in Spanish. I have thought briefly about a double major, the second one being English. Of course, that would mean it would take a little longer to finish altogether, but would it be worth it in the end? I don't know. In addition, I am researching the Disney College Internship Program. Hopefully, I can get applied and will be accepted in order to do it next spring. Then again, that may be a little too soon since I just got back into school, so we will just have to see what happens. I have a little while to decide.

On another note, I don't think I want a boyfriend right now. I'm not ready to get married; there are just too many things I need to grow and work on before I can even think about being attached to someone else. I just want to live my life. Focus on me and where my life is going. I don't want to have to think about whether or not my life fits in with someone else's. Casual, fun is ok, but a serious relationship is just not what I need or want right now. And that's ok.

Getting Started

Now that I am officially in Augusta, I am in search of a new church home. This is hard for me because I have always hated shopping for a new church. When I was little, and my parents were shopping for a new church, I hated the visiting because it meant I was going to have to be around people I didn't know and that has always caused HUGE anxiety for me. When my dad became a pastor, it became a lot easier because we didn't have to shop for a church- we had one already! That also meant most everyone already knew who I was and they were ready to embrace me; all I had to do was learn who they were. Now it's different. I don't know anybody, they don't know me, and that makes for a rather scary experience for me. But that has to be ok, because otherwise, I'll never meet anyone and make friends.

This upcoming Sunday, I'm going to visit a church we went to when I was younger. I'm pretty sure most of my old friends still go there, but they have all changed so much. They're married, have careers, kids, etc. I have none of that. I'm a 25 year old college student with no prospects for marriage. It should be interesting to see how I fit in, if I fit in at all. If this is where God wants me to be, everything will be ok. If not, time to start researching somewhere else, and the hunt continues!

Please pray that God would lead me where He wants me to be, and that I would find friends who would embrace me and encourage me in my walk with Christ.

WHEW!!!!

Wow! It has been such a long time since I last blogged and so much has changed! For starters, I am no longer driving back and forth between ATL and Augusta. This past weekend was my last, this upcoming weekend I am going to Acquire the Fire with my Dads' church's youth group, and the following Tuesday, hopefully, I will be on the schedule at my new Kroger!!! Classes are going well; I have had several Spanish quizzes that I have done really well on, my Communications class is going well, and my Science class sucks. All in all, life is good! It's nice to be here in Augusta, where I am closer to my parents, but I also have a HUGE support system here in Augusta and that makes my life so much better.

The other day, I was in ATL at an outlet mall with a friend of mine, when we went to get into my car and the remote would not work. We opened the car old school (with a key!!) only to discover that the automatic door locks would not work, nor would the automatic trunk release. The car itself would not turn on. Nothing worked. Naturally, I was a little panicked! A woman next to us was kind enough to let us jump off my car with her's, and then things started working properly. Turns out, my battery is showing signs off needing replacing, Goody!!!! The good thing is, now I have people I can call next time who can come to my rescue. Once again, life is good!

Of course, this also means it's time to crack down on the weightloss. I have plumped back up in the last 2 months since I have been eating mostly fast food during the weekends. So, no more fast food, I have to start exercising regularly, and I have to start demonstrating self-control when it comes to my Grandma's cooking!! Wish me luck!

So far, So Good

So far, my classes are going really well. I am getting mostly A's in my Spanish class and I am re-learning a lot. I have a test coming up next week in communications that I have yet to study for, but I am confident that I will do well. My time in Atlanta is almost up, which is both sad and exciting all at the same time, but I know this move is for the best. I have had a slight misstep with my W2, but hopefully that will all work itself out, and I can still get my Great Dane I so desperately want. I will be keeping you updated on the progress of my puppy. (Mom, I know you will be checking back frequently for that!!) Once again, pray that God would show me which store I am supposed to transfer to, that I would find a place that would allow me to have my beloved Great Dane, and that I would make lots of lasting friendships here in Augusta. Oh, and that I would find a good church family!

Scooby Dooby DoooOOOOOOO

Did you ever wonder what kind of dog Scooby Doo is? Well, Scooby is a Great Dane. That's why he was so big. Well, I have always loved Great Danes- not because of Scooby, but because I love big dogs. They are just HUGE!!!!! I have a friend who has 4 of them. She said that any time they take them to the park, it looks like 4 horses running around. Maybe the fact that they look like horses has something to do with my love of Great Danes, because I always wanted one of those too, but never got one. Hmmmm. Anyways, now that I am about to officially be living on my own, I have been thinking about getting a dog. Of course, I wanted a Great Dane, but most places, if they allow pets, have a weight or size limit to the pets you can have, so I had pretty much ruled out having a Great Dane. However, my friend Brooke, the one with 4 of them, told me the other day that one of her dogs is having puppies and I should get one. Naturally, I was ecstatic! BUT I can't get one right now because I am not officially on my own just yet. I am still driving back and forth between Atlanta and Augusta for school and work, not to mention I am living with my Grandmother. It would not be very fair to the dog for me to travel so much, and certainly not fair to my Grandma for me to bring in this massive dog. SO I have to wait. That's ok though! Brooke and her husband are planning another litter for the fall that will be ready for Christmas. Soooooooooooo Merry Christmas to ME from ME!!!!! In the meantime, I have to put away the money for not only the dog, but also the initial vet costs, standard pet medications, food, supplies, etc. That's ok though. I'm very excited about getting this enormous edition to my family of ME, and I know I can make this work. Please pray that I find a place that allows me to have pets AND that I won't have to worry about my pet being stolen!

Who's Idea Was This?

Oh wait!! It was MINE!!!

So far back at school, I have had one test, a quiz, and another quiz tomorrow. I have another test next week, and another one coming up towards the end of the month. Welcome back to college!!

Other than that, all is good. I don't have too much longer to be driving back and forth between Augusta and Atlanta for work. While I am very sad to leave my friends in Atlanta, I am more than ready to be here in Augusta full-time. This is a new beginning for me. A fresh start. I'm anxious to meet new people, make new friends, have a normal routine, etc. Change normally scares me, and this one kind of does too, but, as I have blogged before, change is necessary for growth.

Sometimes I Think.....

If I could just get people to see things my way, and do things the way I think they should be done, the world would be a much better place.

If I said to that one person of the day who really gets under your skin, what is going through my head, I would find myself unemployed.

If God would synchronize His watch with mine, since His timing is perfect, I would have been married a long time ago.

If I could just fast-forward 5 years to when I have my big-girl job and husband, hopefully, I would be so much happier.

If only I had been born an only child, or to a wealthy family, my life would have turned out so differently.


But Then I Think........

Difference: that's what makes the world go round.

I would like to keep my car, so I should probably smile, nod, and apologize even when it's not my fault, just so I can keep my job.

There are so many things I have learned and still have to learn, that if I were married right now, I would surely screw it up!

That if I could fast-forward 5 years, I would miss out on all that God has to teach me.

That I wouldn't be the person I am, have the people in my life that I do, and I might not have the peace that passes all understanding.

Thank You, God, for who I am, who you have given me, and what you have taught me.