Sunday, March 28, 2010

Getting Acclimated!!

It takes me a VERY long time to get acclimated whenever I move to a new place and build myself a brand new life. Meeting new people has never been something I did with great ease, and even though I have gotten A LOT better than i used to be, I'm still not great at it. Tonight was my first night at my new store. The people seem to be very nice. One girl did walk up to me and tell me what to do with a sort of arrogance about her, and that said to me that she was trying to put me in my place and make sure I knew where I was on the totem pole, but I am not that easily deterred. In observing several of the "supervisory" employees, including this girl, I determined that most of my front end manager's team is crap. They don't help customers efficiently, they don't answer phones efficiently, and they don't get work done efficiently. I am to be one of these people, and I WILL show them up.

On a better note, I went to church this morning. Well, yesterday morning. It's past midnight here. I went to a church my family and me attended many years ago when we lived in Augusta and I saw people I knew from way back when. Lots of things have changed. I only attended SS and then I left to come home because I was stressing about having to be at work this afternoon, and not sure what I was supposed to wear. So, naturally, I had to miss church. I think I might visit there one more time just to give it a fair shot. I liked the SS teachers, and their daughter (and behold! there was the entire class, including myself!!) so I may go back because according to them, they have a few others who attend the class. However, as an initial observation, this church doesn't seem to have what I'm looking for. That would have been too easy!

Finally, I'm getting my room adjusted to how I like it. My closet is in order, my drawers are, for the most part, organized, and my furniture is arranged nicely. I just need to get the rest of my junk where it belongs, you know, after I figure out where it belongs. That's my project for tomorrow. I don't have to work, and I don't have that blasted science class until 5:30, so organizing and cleaning my room is a good project for a nice, potentially rainy day. Good times!!!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Where am I? Where am I going?

Have you ever known God had big things in store for you, but you didn't know what they were or how you were going to get there? I know that God has "great" things in store for my life, but I just don't see how my life now is going to turn into the life I imagine God has for me. Of course, the "great" in my mind could be a completely different "great" than the one God has in mind, but something tells me that the two fall pretty closely together. It's frustrating. I don't know what it is God wants me to do. I don't know how I am supposed to get there. I see the path I'm on and I see the one I imagine gets me to where I think I'm going, but I just don't see how the two coincide. I do know that this is the part where I learn patience. This is the part where I continue on the path I'm on, working towards doing God's will, and wait and see the incredible journey God has for me.

Right now I am on the path to finish my degree in Public Relations with a minor in Spanish. I have thought briefly about a double major, the second one being English. Of course, that would mean it would take a little longer to finish altogether, but would it be worth it in the end? I don't know. In addition, I am researching the Disney College Internship Program. Hopefully, I can get applied and will be accepted in order to do it next spring. Then again, that may be a little too soon since I just got back into school, so we will just have to see what happens. I have a little while to decide.

On another note, I don't think I want a boyfriend right now. I'm not ready to get married; there are just too many things I need to grow and work on before I can even think about being attached to someone else. I just want to live my life. Focus on me and where my life is going. I don't want to have to think about whether or not my life fits in with someone else's. Casual, fun is ok, but a serious relationship is just not what I need or want right now. And that's ok.

Getting Started

Now that I am officially in Augusta, I am in search of a new church home. This is hard for me because I have always hated shopping for a new church. When I was little, and my parents were shopping for a new church, I hated the visiting because it meant I was going to have to be around people I didn't know and that has always caused HUGE anxiety for me. When my dad became a pastor, it became a lot easier because we didn't have to shop for a church- we had one already! That also meant most everyone already knew who I was and they were ready to embrace me; all I had to do was learn who they were. Now it's different. I don't know anybody, they don't know me, and that makes for a rather scary experience for me. But that has to be ok, because otherwise, I'll never meet anyone and make friends.

This upcoming Sunday, I'm going to visit a church we went to when I was younger. I'm pretty sure most of my old friends still go there, but they have all changed so much. They're married, have careers, kids, etc. I have none of that. I'm a 25 year old college student with no prospects for marriage. It should be interesting to see how I fit in, if I fit in at all. If this is where God wants me to be, everything will be ok. If not, time to start researching somewhere else, and the hunt continues!

Please pray that God would lead me where He wants me to be, and that I would find friends who would embrace me and encourage me in my walk with Christ.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010


Wow! It has been such a long time since I last blogged and so much has changed! For starters, I am no longer driving back and forth between ATL and Augusta. This past weekend was my last, this upcoming weekend I am going to Acquire the Fire with my Dads' church's youth group, and the following Tuesday, hopefully, I will be on the schedule at my new Kroger!!! Classes are going well; I have had several Spanish quizzes that I have done really well on, my Communications class is going well, and my Science class sucks. All in all, life is good! It's nice to be here in Augusta, where I am closer to my parents, but I also have a HUGE support system here in Augusta and that makes my life so much better.

The other day, I was in ATL at an outlet mall with a friend of mine, when we went to get into my car and the remote would not work. We opened the car old school (with a key!!) only to discover that the automatic door locks would not work, nor would the automatic trunk release. The car itself would not turn on. Nothing worked. Naturally, I was a little panicked! A woman next to us was kind enough to let us jump off my car with her's, and then things started working properly. Turns out, my battery is showing signs off needing replacing, Goody!!!! The good thing is, now I have people I can call next time who can come to my rescue. Once again, life is good!

Of course, this also means it's time to crack down on the weightloss. I have plumped back up in the last 2 months since I have been eating mostly fast food during the weekends. So, no more fast food, I have to start exercising regularly, and I have to start demonstrating self-control when it comes to my Grandma's cooking!! Wish me luck!